I feel like writing.
Plans change so very quickly. Some tidbits get added in while others are pushed to the side or taken of the agenda entirely.
I’m not sure why it’s hard for me to understand I’m really just a baby in the scheme of things. I’m only 21 years old and if I’m lucky and fairly normal, I still have 40, 50, 60, maybe even 70 more years to go.
I’m so anxious to fit everything in. Right here. Right now. I’ve always been looking ahead, never in the present. So it’s hard for me to take a moment, breathe, and remember I have more time.
At first I thought… no grad school. But then I found Seattle Pacific.. or, well I guess I found their 11 mo. grad school program first. It would be in Sustainable Business and the program sounds amazing. It’s for non-business majors (that’s me!) and hey, it even includes some travel abroad (China or India!)
I seemed to have inherited the hope from my parents to open up my own business one day. I still do hope to! In fact, that’s a big thing I’ve wanted to do for a long time and I really look forward to the time when I’m ready to do so. A masters in business isn’t required but it would make me feel more prepared and a business masters actually goes very well with a public relations degree.
So that was the plan (as of this past semester.) Jack figured he’d apply to some history grad schools there too! And besides, I sort of wanted to start over once again and try school just one more time. In a different area, new friends, new school, new life perspectives, etc etc.
But I also have the opportunity to try and apply for the Downtown Goshen Inc. event planner, or what most people here in Goshen know, as First Fridays. I’d do it for a year.. hopefully get the salary listed too (30,000-35,000 + benefits.) Not too bad for a girl out of college, right?
It sucks because I sort of want to get out of Goshen but at the same time I have so many connections and plenty of opportunities for jobs.. but now that I have FF on my mind, it makes me think of how nice it could be sticking around Goshen after school is done.. take a year off and work.. be with friends.. plan the next order of events in my life.. whatever.
The main priority I have though, is that whatever we do, Jack and I do not get separated. I know it sounds lame but he is my best friend, my boyfriend, whichever he is at that day and time, he’s the best company I have and I like his company. I need him around. And hopefully he’d feel the same. If I take the DGI/FF opportunity, I don’t want to mess up his plans if that means he has to stay here and volunteer or work or whatever he has to do for me to get him to stay here…
THEN after that year of working with DGI, maybe then we can make the road trip up to Seattle like we hoped.. (maybe even finally official, who knows.)
All I know, is right now I’m ready to move on. I want to get school over with and my last year at Goshen. I’ll be a senior but I’d also be okay with just skipping over all of it and get my degree already. Sort of tired dealing with GC.. I love the place.. but it can be annoying too. It doesn’t help that I’ve been going 12 hour days M-F, sometimes S. I take on way too many jobs and can’t seem to say no. Figures. So I’m seriously just about cashed and I haven’t even started my summer class yet at Bethel.. (which I’m praying will still count as my Humanities credit for Gen Ed… yikes.. It better since this class will cost me 1,000 by the end of it all.. plus the gas to get to Mishawka. FML..)
Well. That’s all my ranting of today.
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